Update. 9 months

I know it has been a while since my last post. I have been trying to figure out what to do with this blog. Do I just wrap it up? Keep it going? Change the subject? I really don’t know. I do know that I am glad I decided to start a blog when I did. When I first had my accident I tried very hard to find situations similar to mine from others across the internet. I was not very successful. One of my main goals for this blog was to provide helpful information to others who may be going through common unfortunate circumstances. I don’t feel like I have particularly met that goal. I do know that it was very therapeutic to me, and it gave me something to do when I had very little to do other than to heal.

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Maybe I’m just not good at riding a bike

I had my last follow up appointment with my neurosurgeon on Monday. I am currently brace free! I was cleared to start physical therapy! He even gave me the OK to drive… I think I will wait on that one at least until after my first PT appointment considering my range of motion is not quite at the “I feel safe to drive” level. I have gone back to work. I pretty much just jumped right back in. It is painful. It is tiring. It is also wonderfully time consuming and challenging. I have been able to do pretty much everything, and help is always readily available if I need it. I am walking on the treadmill without my brace. Showering is pure bliss. I actually even shed a few tears the first time I stood under the running water.

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Back to Normal or Abnormal?

This is the happiest I have ever been to say goodbye to a single year. 2014 can kiss my a$$. I hope some day to look back on all of this and be able to count all of the blessings, lessons learned, and strength gained. Maybe I’m getting there…slowly… But I am really impatient for this all to be over. I want to feel like I’m not on hold anymore. I haven’t blogged in a while, and honestly it’s because I haven’t really felt like it. Writing has been therapeutic and I am glad I decided to do it, but it has become a little more difficult. Maybe it’s because I have grown so impatient for the end. I have a hard time picturing exactly what and when the end is. Is there even an end to this? I am often comforted with the idea that this is just a season and it will pass. A long, cold, crappy season. I really do believe that most of this crap will pass, but what is the end? Or actually, will there be a “back to normal”?

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I’m More Than Just a Pretty Brace!

It’s December. Mid-December. I think this qualifies as Christmastime. At my last appointment with neurosurgery, Dr. Ramsey said I could start transitioning into my Miami J around Christmastime. The amount of time I can spend in the cervical collar vs my CTO would be up to me and my level of fatigue. I am thinking that Wednesday will be a good day for me to give it a try. My neck for the most part feels pretty good, but my back still does hurt quite a bit. I am anxious to see how I will feel in just a neck brace. At this point the brace is more for fatigue, and being in a smaller one I suppose will help with the transition to no brace at all.

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Things I Miss

My previous post was on what I’m thankful for. Today I want to talk about things I miss. As each day passes, I am closer and closer to being able to do some of these things on this list. In a few weeks I will be able to take my brace off for small amounts of time and that is beyond exciting. However, since Thanksgiving weekend the days have been moving at a snail’s pace. I am still knitting, and reading, and exercising, but my cabin fever is getting pretty intense. I have made some plans over the next few days, and despite this absolutely crappy weather we are having I am going to try to stay occupied as much as I can.

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